Been Away Awhile!

It has been a long while since I’ve been on to blog and I have dearly missed it. It has been a crazy few months for sure. I couldn’t reply to everyone’s comments about my engagement and I was bummed by that but blogger was acting up then. Then shortly after I had some major bad incidents with my parents and left and went to a hotel and my friend and fiancé helped pay for it for a few days however there was an un-chaperoned moment which caused some unfortunate drama, nothing happened but we were not with a chaperone which is not appropriate.

So anyway after that I went back home but more drama unfolded and my parents gave me 4 days to get out of the house. So my fiancé knew the manager of an apartment and they had an availability so we got the apartment and at the same time I had started buying a car off of family friends which was great because I started working for Wal-Mart in March which has been a major reason for not blogging because I work so much and on days off I’m too tired or busy to blog.

So I moved out and we moved the wedding to May23rd, my fiancé and I didn’t live to together because in our religion we know what the bible says about the matter and so we intended to only live together once married. Because of the stress of living out on my own and a new job it just led to more and more fights and at the end of April it got bad and a few days after a large fight with nasty words with my fiancé he broke up with me in a very devastating way. He blamed me for his lack of spirituality and just cut all ties.

So I was stuck in an apartment I couldn’t afford on my own and one month from our wedding. So we managed to get out of the apartment with minimal dues which we split. However his family wanted money back he put down to help me get my car and his name was on my title which he went behind my back about, per his family’s advice again, so I borrowed money from my brother in law to pay him. So I got out of the apartment, borrowed money and returned the rings and was so distraught I couldn’t stand it. To make matters worse we work in the same department at Wal-Mart and see each other every single day.

So for 2 weeks I had to live with him trying to talk to me or look at me and it was just horrible for me, I cried so much. Anthony moped around and looked like he had died and I was just so miserable I couldn’t stand to go on.

I went through various phases, distraught, anger, hatreds, ect, I was sue I would never take him back ever. Two weeks in to the breakup at one of our Christian meetings he worse the exact colors of suit and shirt that were original wedding colors and I became so upset I texted him about it. Then I called him that night and for 2 ½ hours I told him everything about my feelings and not wishing to see us suffer any longer.

So we meditated on it and prayed and the next day he had me meet him before work. We talked and we decided to get back together but not as fiancé but boyfriend and girlfriend again until we can afford to get a place and get married not stay stuck in engagement like before but this too caused me and my family confusion and upset. How does one explain this course of action I have yet to figure out?

Worse yet is trying to explain to family and friends why after everything I took him back. We all mess up, we all screw up. We all make decisions we later regret and I saw how he regretted his decision, at the end April we had become harsh toward each other and we needed the break to learn valuable lessons. We needed to learn proper communication, patience, trust, respect. Not to speak harsh or rashly, not to become unduly angry and to rely on Jehovah God for guidance and direction. We needed the time to learn and we are in a better place now but there are still times of miscommunication and stress but it’s because we are imperfect. Some think we are rushing and others think we are not going forward enough but we are trying to get to a good place so we may marry and this time we have learned what we have to do to make a better stronger relationship and marriage.

So this ahs been what has been going on with me since last I was on here blogging. It has been a chaotic, stressful few months but I am trying to deal with it and I will try my best to blog more often and update you all on what is going on. This year has been probably a bit worse then last year and I had hoped it would be better so I’m hoping to make it better by years end. The great thing this year is I am still with Anthony who really is a very kind; gentle, loving man and we are ready to start our lives together fully.

Echeveria

Meaning: ("The new house", a surname of Basque origin spelled Etxeberria in that language and widespread in Spanish speaking countries. Plants may be evergreen or deciduous. Flowers on short stalks (cymes) arise from compact rosettes of succulent fleshy, often brightly coloured leaves. Species are polycarpic, meaning that they may flower and set seed many times over the course of their lifetimes. Often numerous offsets are produced, and are commonly known as "hen and chicks", which can also refer to other genera, such as Sempervivum, that are significantly different from Echeveria.

The genus is named after the 18th century Mexican botanical artist Atanasio Echeverría y Godoy.)

Origin: (Basque)

Pronunciation: (ech-uh-vuh-ree-uh)

Gender: Female

I was in the garden center at Wal-Mart waiting for my boyfriend to get lunch and I was looking at some plants and I saw one that had the name Echeveria and I was like that is very foreign and beautiful. The meaning and origin is unique and very much a fresh start like meaning. This is a name best suited for a fantasy novel in my opinion if used as a characters name. However it would be really cool to see a planet named this in a novel as well.

Annalina

Meaning: (Graceful Light)

Origin: (Swedish)

Pronunciation: (A-nə-LEE-nə, AN ah LEE nah)

Gender: Female

I was hitting a name drought so I got my character naming book off my shelf and flipped through and came across this name. It is beautiful but also just basically like a combination of double barrel names like Anna and Lina. It’s a beautiful combination of one common name Anna and one less common name Lina. The meaning is so light and airy and feminine and the whole name as a whole just seems so breathtakingly beautiful.

Ivalyn

Meaning: (A climbing evergreen ornamental plant, Ivalyn is an alternate form of Ivy)

Origin: (English, Old English, English Nature Name)

Pronunciation: (IHVAHLihN)

Gender: Female

My boyfriend Anthony had a cat when growing up that he nicknamed Ivalyn though her name was Ivy. Ivalyn is such a pretty unique take to give more depth to the simple name Ivy. Ivalyn seems an old lady like name but if used in a Historical Fiction novel it could be used on a younger character. It is very beautiful and ethereal in a way and Ivy plants are very much plants I associate with fairy tales. This could be very pretty if used for either a peasant girl or a girl of nobility like Lady Ivalyn or Princess Ivalyn or Duchess Ivalyn.

Rinehart

Meaning: (Great Judgment, Wise, Bold, Courageous, Brave-Hearted, is the Americanized spelling of the German surname Reinhardt. The Reinhardt surname is of pre 7th century Germanic origins. It is a German and Jewish surname that comes from a male personal name Raginhard, composed of the elements ragin, meaning Counsel, with Hard, Hardy, Brave, Strong. Recorded in some forty spelling forms from Reynard, Reinhard, Renhard and Reignard, to Reinaert, Raardot, and Reintsema, this interesting surname is ultimately of pre 7th century Germanic origins. However spelt it derives from the male personal name "Raginhard", composed of the elements "ragin", meaning counsel, with "hard", hardy, brave, strong. The given names "Rainardi" and "Rainart" are noted in the Domesday Book of Norfolk (1086). This name was borne by the cunning fox in the popular medieval cycle of beast-tales, with the result that from the 13th Century the Old French "goupil", fox, was replaced by the modern form "renard", fox. This suggests that the surname may also have originated as a nickname for crafty individuals, referring to the fox's reputation for cunning. The surname is first recorded in the early 13th Century (see below), and recordings of the surname from medieval times include Heinrch Reinhard of Bonnigheld, Germany, in the year 1286, and Heinrici reinhart of Homburg, Germany, in 1315. Church register recordings in England include: the christening of Beatrice, daughter of James Reynard, on July 29th 1571, at St. Botolph without Aldgate; city of London. The first recorded spelling of the family name anywhere in the world is shown to be that of Elias Reynardi, which was dated 1205, at St. Benet Holme, Norfolk. This was during the reign of King John of England, known by the nickname of "Lackland", 1199 - 1216. Surnames became necessary when governments introduced personal taxation. Throughout the centuries surnames in every country have continued to "develop", often leading to astonishing variants of the original spelling. http://www.surnamedb.com/Surname/Reinhart )

Origin: (English, Germanic, Americanized, Danish, Norwegian)

Pronunciation- (rahyn-hahrt)

Gender: Uni-Sex

There is a street near my place of worship that is named Rinehart and so I added it to my list for the reason I’ve seen this name used in variant spellings for characters before. The meanings are strong and the look is very strong as well and I believe with this name it would do well as a surname but also a middle name but if spelled differently then would be ok as a first name. It has a nice history of use and good background so it could be used in different genres and different backgrounds.

Anthony

Meaning: (Highly Praiseworthy, Priceless, of Inestimable Worth, from a Roman clan name. In the 17^th Century, the spelling Anthony was associated with the Greek anthos meaning flower. English form of the roman family name Antonius, which is of unknown Etruscan origin. The most notable member of the Roman family was the general Marcus Antonius (called Mark Antony in English), who for a period in the 1^st Century BC ruled the Roman Empire jointly with Augustus. When their relationship turned sour, he and his mistress Cleopatra were attacked and forced to commit suicide, as related in Shakespeare’s tragedy ‘Antony and Cleopatra’ (1606).

The name became regularly used in the Christian world due to the fame of Saint Anthony the Great, a 4th-century Egyptian hermit who founded Christian monasticism. Its popularity was reinforced in the Middle Ages by the 13th-century Saint Anthony of Padua, the patron saint of Portugal. It has been commonly (but incorrectly) associated with Greek ανθος (anthos) "flower", which resulted in the addition of the h to this spelling in the 17th century.)

Origin: (English, Latin, Etruscan)

Pronunciation: (AN-thə-nee, AN-tə-nee)

Gender: Male

My boyfriend is named Anthony. The meanings are very strong and masculine and very noble! It has a great history of use and is a common enough name to be recognizable but not so common it’s over used or anything in literature! I really do love this name and not just because it’s my boyfriends name! My boyfriend has had a few women say his name is sexy in the last few months, lol! This is a name that could fit in many different genres and backgrounds!

Okazaki

Meaning: (Hill Cape, found mostly in northeastern Japan and the island of Shikoku. Some bearers have samurai connections.)

Origin: (Japanese)

Pronunciation: (oh-kuh-sah-kee)

Gender: Male

This is a name of one of the main characters on the ‘Clannad’ Anime that my boyfriend Anthony *see on list of posts* had been showing me. The meaning is nice and the name itself is a decent recognizable Japanese name. I can see a Japanese monster being named this for some reason, lol!